why am i up?

i tend to take naps at around 8 or 9pm for two hours now. this means i dont sleep until about 3am. GOOD THING IM ON BREAK. but not. i have work at 330pm tmw. my favorite place to be while on vacation. NOT.

currently i have a crest whitening whitestrip over my teeth. im salivating like crazy and it does not taste good.not really sure if im supposed to swallow it, but i dont because i just feel like something bad will happen if i do. as a result, my mouth is FULL of saliva right now. 5 more minutes til i can spit it out and take off these strips. i hope it works!! i wish i took pictures of my teeth so i could have a before/after shot. i still can, its only been two days.

i think im going to start writing my dreams down. tho i do have some REALLY weird dreams that freak me out. im still scared of my gma ghost one. holy crappp. whenever i cant sleep for a while, i SWEAR i see something in front of my closet. weird thing is MY GMA IS ALIVE. omg its freaking haunting me

friday needs to come now!

the next time i update this, it might be 2011 and ill hopefully have whiter teeth!

graduation check

i met with an advisor today and went over all my graduation checklists.

wont lie, it was really scary! now im just waiting for an email from the college of biosci saying YAY YOU'RE COMPLETED ALL YOUR REQUIREMENTS.

i will follow by chris tomlin is my new facorite song!

grandmama

im writing a profile on my grandma for my english class. i dont really know much about my grandma, don't really know why, but it's just a giant secret within my family. i've always wanted to know so hopefully by writing this profile, i'll have a tiny glimpse of what kind of person she used to be.

it's a shame i can't ask her because she wont remember. :( i really want to know why she gave me my chinese name. im a lucky yellow herb. yellow being my surname and lucky herb being my actual chinese name. my pal buddy said it's a good strong name. but of course can't tell me WHY i was given it. sighhh. all i can think of is literally a tiny herb. i bet you my grandma was drinking tea when i was born and was like oh herbs! let's name her after this tea im sipping on!

it poured today a couple times. the sun decided to make an appearance late afternoon. our weather is whack. it's going to be sunny tmw and for the rest of the week.

BACK TO WRITING.

hot chocolate and life

i love hot chocolate. especially when its a cold day and i have nothing to do. i've been drinking hot chocolate a lot this week.

its the end of week 5 of this quarter and im DRAINED. i don't know how i manage to survive with work and school. im literally gone all day until 9pm and i start school the next day at either 9 or 1030am. i like staying busy during the day or else ill succumb into the comforts my bed and just sleep the day away. but this is just WAY BUSY.

i dont have time to do anything else. though to be honest, in terms of classes, this quarter is not bad. i seem to be passing my classes with flying colors given the amount of time/effort and work i put in. i probably would have failed ochem if i did this last year. maybe its cause i just happen to know a ton of physiology from my dad teaching me random facts about my body while at home. or its cause i just know what words to put on my quiz to get the full credit. whatever it is, im glad i have it because my classes are going well.

we've been getting a ton of new young pharmacists at work. i dont know if they're permanently here or if its just cause our main pharmacist is going around all the different cvs' to monitor? but they're really fun to talk to. most don't know why they went into pharmacy or they had nothing else to do and graduated with a degree in bio/science. i've been doing a lot of thinking and i can't really give a reason of why i want to go into pharmacy. at least right now. maybe after more exposure ill know. but for now i can only think of what im going to hate about pharmacy. i cannot stand on my feet for 8 hours every day. omg i can barely stand for 5 hours at a time NO BREAK. all pharmacy seems to be now is just BUSINESS. i feel like they dont really care about patients as much as i thought they did before i took the job. if a patient doesn't get their prescription there and decides to transfer it to another pharmacy, the tech gets in trouble for giving 'bad customer service' when in reality its the patients insurance who sucks. omg insurance always gives us unnecessary problems!
but what i do like is that i can give advice on meds and educate people on it! i really like that. i really want to work somewhere where most of the patients aren't able to speak english and usually cannot connect/communicate with whatever health care provider they go to. i want to learn/practice more languages so i can break that barrier. I LOVE LEARNING LANGUAGES. but i dont know if i can justify going into pharmacy school and spending a ton of money and 4 years just to come out and see that i wont be able to do that and be in some crazy debt. ugh.

so im taking next year to do what i know i love doing-KIDS AND MATH. and hopefully ill be able to really decide on what im going to do with my life.

also, i cant believe this is my last year at davis. but i also miss home. IM COMING HOME SOOON <3

oh! i have a pal buddy! his name is ben and he's from taiwan. pal is a program where you meet up with an international student and converse with them to practice english! i think ben is here for like a student exchange program or something. i couldn't really understand him. but all he does is go to his esl classes. but im having so much fun teaching him english and trying to explain stuff in english with chinese. HAHA omg my chinese SUCKS. that's okay tho, he still understands me so i can't be that horrible. but yeah i have him email me a composition every day of anything to make him practice his writing. his first composition he sent me was:

tonight, i was happy,because i went to my friend house to make dumpling.
we perpared a lot of pork, cheek and vegetable to make. everybody was happy to make the dumpling.
after we made the dumpling, we took dumpling to cook. however, we made about 200 each of dumpling.
the dumpling was very good.

<3 he's 25 but this is just ADORABLE.omg. melts my heart.

well toodles until i find some spare time to write another bloggy!

LAST PHYSICS FINAL OF MY LIFE

i am so excited that i can't sleep!

i remember those days where id be so excited about the next day that i'd be wide awake in bed giggling to myself. those days were mainly my birthday and 6th grade beach boardwalk trip, and maybe disneyland. but that is EXACTLY how i feel right now. minus the fact that i'm supposed to be studying/reviewing.

i've found every way possible of distracting myself from physics. meh.


but new obsession! BOY MEETS WORLD <3

cornelius a. matthews: ILL BE YOUR TOPANGA <333333

next series to watch and finish: sabrina the teenage witch!

note to men

never propose in any of these ways. please.


http://www.shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/marriage-proposals-that-went-awry-2293047/

life is short

my great uncle passed today. or yesterday since its 2am now. i didn't really know him, but i still feel really sad. we always went out to lunch with him at tian tian yu gan (somewhere by hostetter?), or i think its called like grand palace? regardless, that restaurant will always remind me of him. the past year, i could see that it was time for him to go soon- he couldn't drive anymore, his movements were slower, and then the last time i saw him, he could barely keep his eyes open during lunch.

i should be studying for my physics final, but all i can really think about is how my jiu ma is doing and my daddy. i think its the first family related death for my dad. actually no, but probably the first close relative of my dads to pass away. it must suck knowing that someone who kinda helped raise you is gone forever. i can never get my family story straight, but i think my great uncle took care of my dad when he first came to US. even if it were just for a couple of days.

rip great uncle
you had a long fulfilling life. im sure you were a smart engineer, a good brother to nainai, and a cool uncle to daddy. sorry i was too young to really get to know you.

on a happier (kinda) note, two more days of this crappy summer session. wouldn't have sucked that much if my professor could actually teach properly. thank you for confusing me and making me waste so much time listening to you when you didn't even make sense.
tmw will be a long day of learning everything there is to our renal, endocrine, reproductive and digestive system. YAY.

summer

im supposed to be at OH but my professor did not show up.. OR i wasn't going to the right room (and can't find him anywhere in this building!). either way, i just wasted two hours of sleep.

my summer has turned out to be more busy than i had imagined. i thought taking two classes per session would still give me a buttload of time to chill. instead, im in class from about 9-4 monday-thursday, then work right after class from aboutt 5-9. i may be making money and learning lots, but im freakin TIRED.

davis weather is deathly. waking up because im sweaty at 7am is not my ideal way of getting out of bed. its definitely gotten cooler the past two days, but i believe it'll be hot again this weekend! lovely. next time, i need to seriously check the weather of the location of the next school i shall be attending. i forgot to include that when deciding between uc's.

i want a netbook! they're so cute and small. haha. i know jon will lecture me about how having a mac and a netbook is useless. blah blah blahhhhh. i still want one, but i know i'll be wasting money, and/or wasting time using my netbook in class and not learning. lame.

time to try to find my professor again. hopefully he's somewhere in this building..

i LOVE finals week

why?

i dont have class, so i can stay up as long as i want. i'm not learning anything new (hopefully) and its just all review up to this point. that's how it was last year at least.

i didn't expect my classes to just explode in terms of how difficult the material is. i mean seirously its like a volcano erupted and just keeps going! but i also did realize this year that grades aren't THAT important. its still nice to see an A on my test or transcript, but when i look back to my sophomore year, im really not going to care.

what i will care about is how blessed i am to be able to help a sophomore student go from failing and completely clueless in algebra and geometry to acing her last couple chapter tests this year. quite amazing because i definitely didn't expect her to improve that much.

tutoring was most definitely one of the highlights this quarter. it took out some study/resting time of mine, but watching her understand math was worth it. im excited i get to continue tutoring this summer! ALGEBRA too. omg i love algebra, my favorite subject of all times.

i really miss math. im having a mid-life college career major crisis. what if i decided on the wrong major and graduate with something i dont actually want to do. WHAT IF.

omg.

:)

it is freakin hot in davis right now. its not even that bad, but im so used to cold weather now! (its supposed to rain tmw tho.....) last night i slept upside down and on top of my covers because it was too hot. i dont know why i thought sleeping upside down would make it cooler, but in my head it did.

i planned on waking up at a random hour last night to study biochem, but obviously that plan failed. i really need to motivate myself to just sit down and go into my own little world of studying. this quarter has been a butt. maybe its because i'm doing a lot more therefore i lose lots of studying time. this tradeoff better be worth it!

working at cvs as a pharm tech isnt what i expected. i definitely have more appreciation for cashiers now and whenever they dont say "thanks ms wong/gabby" after i pay, i think about the customer service grade going down. sometimes i can't say peoples name cause i really have NO idea how to pronounce it. last night a lady came in with a foreign name and as hard as i wanted to say thanks ms _______ i didn't want to butcher her name so i just smiled and nicely said have a nice night! :D (i work night shifts poo)

i really need to learn drug names, stat! hydrocodone is vidocin, i think. and that's all i know because it seems like everyone is getting that....makes me suspicious but they're middle aged people so eh. oh, and nasal spray! i forgot the name tho, flosomax? or something close to that.

i want to take two years off after undergrad to just relax. it'll only be one year really in terms of people my year since i can graduate next spring. it'd be nice to have a break from school. im afraid that i'll never want to go back to school tho. haha. i want to travel all over and somehow make money while i do that so i can pay for school! most likely i'll just be working somewhere trying to save every cent and not exploring the world. lameee.

oh its been more than 5 minutes. oops. back to biochem.

there are nice people in the world!

while driving back from tutoring, i saw this guy pushing his jeep to the right. i assumed his car had stopped working while waiting for the light. i felt really bad for him! but as i started to drive off, a random guy in a trunk stops, gets out, and runs to help the other guy push his car. then he gets into his trunk, and leaves.

it all happened so fast, but this guy really made my day! to whoever you are, thanks.

people/thing watching

when i have an hour gap before my next class, i usually go to the silo, or bio office hour, and people watch. ever since taking psyc 1 at de anza, i've noticed that i do this. A LOT.

i pay attention to stuff like how this girl is reading her wicked book and eating a cheese pizza. im wondering if she's more into her pizza or the actual story. i think the story. she's been on this SMALL PERSONAL SIZED PIZZA SLICE for about 5 minutes. im slow at eating and it takes me about 5 minutes to eat a regular sized slice....

i also see a vast amount of macbooks and about 75% of those macbook users have a keyboard protector. MAINLY PINK ONES. ahhahah i guess girls like to be more protective of their stuff. i know i am! i have TWO keyboard protector ones. one is pink one is black. :) im very paranoid that my keys will get even more shiny than they are now.

in ochem, i used to sit behind this guy who would take out both his iphone and itouch. why on the planet do you need BOTH of those. they're pretty much the same exact things except one can call people. anyway, he plays on both of them during ochem class and occasionally will jot something down in his notebook. i also wonder if he's just super smart since he doesn't really take notes. or if he's the person scoring the single digit low score in the class.

its also amusing watching people on their laptop. their facial expression is mainly what i look at. i see how concentrated they are. sometimes the person looks like they're about to fall asleep, but other times, people are laughing their heads off. i know i do when i talk to people online while chilling on my laptop. i feel like a fool just laughing in my little bubble. -_-

oh i gotta go to my class now. yay for getting certified to work in a lab. ugh. two hour class on the safety of being in a lab.

apparently taking chem and bio lab classes and learning there is NOT ENOUGH.

lameee